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minds   tied   right   up   to   such   thingsonly   the   things   are   finerthey   are 

marble floors and magnificent restaurants and houses on what they call the 

'best streets。' At meals�察�there are all kinds of little spoons and forks�察�and 

they think to use a wrong one is something dreadful�察�that is why I say the 

forks and spoons seem more important than THEY are�察�but they want it to 

be so。 

     ;They have certain ways of doing everything�察�and just certain times for 

doing them�察�and if you do a wrong thing at a right time�察�or a right thing at 

a   wrong   time�察  �it   shows   you   are   from  the West。 At   first�察 �I   couldn't   say  a 

word�察  �or   turn   around�察  �without   showing   that   I   was   from   the   West。   But 

although I've been from home only a few days�察�I'm getting so that nobody 

can tell that I'm more important than the furniture around me。 I'm trying to 

be just like the one I'm with�察�and I don't believe an outsider can tell that I 

have any more sense than the rest of them。 

     ;Miss Sellimer is so nice to me。 I told her right at the start that I didn't 

know anything about the big world�察�and she teaches me everything。 I'd be 

more   comfortable   if   she   could   forget   about   my   saving   her   life�察  �but   she 

never can�察�and is so grateful it makes me feel that I'm enjoying all this on 

false   pretenses   for   you   know   my   finding   her   was   only   an   accident。   Her 

mother is very pleasant to memuch more so than to her。 Bill�察�you know 

how you speak to your horse�察�sometimes�察�when it acts contrary�拭�That's the 

way   Miss   Sellimer   speaks   to   her   mother�察  �at   times。   However�察  �they   don't 

seem   very   well     acquainted     with   each   other。  Of   course   if  they'd   lived 



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together   in   a   cove   for   years�察  �they'd   have   learned   to   tell   each   other   their 

thoughts and plans�察�but out in the big world there isn't time for anything 

except to dress and go。 

     ;I'm   learning   to   dress。   I   used   to   think   a   girl   could   do   that   to   please 

herself�察�but no�察�the dresses are a thousand times more important than the 

people inside them。 It wouldn't matter how wise you are if your dress is 

wrong�察 �nor   would   it   matter   how   foolish�察�if   your   dress   is   like   everybody 

else's。   A   person   could   be   independent   and   do   as   she   pleased�察  �but   she 

wouldn't be in society。 And nobody would believe she was   independent�察�

they  would   just think   she   didn't   know  any  better�察 �or   was poor。   Because�察�

they    don't   know     anything     about    being    independent�察     �they   want    to  be 

governed by their things。 A poor person isn't cut off from society because 

he hasn't money�察�but because he doesn't know how to deal with high things�察�

not   having   practised   amongst   them。   It   isn't   because   society   people   have 

lots of money that they stick together�察�but because all of them know what 

to do with the little forks and spoons。 

     ;It   is   like   the   dearest�察  �jolliest   kind   of   game   to   me�察  �to   be   with   these 

people�察�and say just what they say�察�and like what they like�察�and act as they 

actand that's the difference between me and them�察�it's not a game to them�察�

it's deadly earnest。 They think they're LIVING� �

     ;Do you think I could play at this so long that one day I'd imagine I 

was doing what God had expected of me when he sent me to you�察�Brick�拭�

Could I stay out in the big world until I'd think of the cove as a cramped 

little pocket in the wilderness with two pennies jingling at the bottom of it 

named Brick and Bill�拭�If I thought there was any danger of that�察�I'd start 

home in the morning� �

     ;We are in a Kansas City hotel where all the feathers are in ladies' hats 

and bonnets instead of in the gentlemen's hair。 To get to our rooms you go 

to a dark little door and push something that makes a bell ring�察�and then 

you   step   into   a   dugout   on   pulleys�察  �that   shoots   up   in   the   air   so   quick   it 

makes   you   feel   a   part   of   you   has   fallen   out   and   got   lost。   The   dugout 

doesn't slow up for the third story�察�it just stops THAT QUICKthey call it 

an 'elevator' and it certainly does elevate� �You step out in a dim trail where 

there are dusky kinds of lights�察�although it may be the middle of the day�察�



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and you follow the trail over a narrow yellow desert�察�turn to your right and 

keep going till you reach a door with your number on it。 When you are in 

your room�察�you see the things that are considered more important than the 

people。 

     ;There's an entire room set apart for the sole purpose of bathing��and 

the room with the bed in it is separate from the sitting´room。 You can go in 

one and stay a while�察�and go in another and stay a while�察�and then go in 

the thirdand you have a different feeling for each room that you're in。 I'd 

rather see everything at once�察�as I can in my cabin。 And that bed� �If my 

little   bed   at   home   could   be   brought   here   and   set   up   beside   this   hotel 

wonder�察�the very walls would cry out。。。。 I wish I could sleep in my little 

bed tonight�察�and hear the wind howling over the mountain。 

     ;The dining´room is the   finest thing I   ever saw�察�I doubt if the kings 

and queens of old times ever ate in richer surroundings。 There are rows of 

immense mirrors along the wall and gold borders and then the tables� �I 

wonder what would happen if anybody should spread newspapers on one 

of these wonderful tables and use them for a tablecloth�拭�At home�察�we can 

just   reach   out   and   take   what   we   want   off  the  stove�察  �and   help   our  plates 

without   rising。   It's   so   different   here� �After   you've   worried   over   crooked 

lists of things to eat that you've never heard of�察�and have hurried to select 

so the waiter won't have to lose any time�察�the waiter goes away。 And when 

he puts something before you�察�you don't know what to call it�察�because it's 

been   so   long�察  �you've   forgotten   its   name   on   that   awful   pasteboard。   But 

there's   something   pleasant   when   you've   finished�察  �in   just   getting   up   and 

walking away�察�not caring who cleans up the dishes� �

     ;I've been to the opera´house�察�but it wasn't an opera�察�it was a play。 That 

houseI wish you could see it��the inside�察�I mean�察�for outside it looks like 

it   needs   washing。   The   chairswell�察  �if   you   sent   that   stool   of   ours   to   a 

university you couldn't train it up to look anything like those opera´chairs。 

And the dressesthe diamonds。。。。 Everything was perfectly lovely except 

what   we   had   come   to   see�察  �and   my   party   thought   it   was   too   funny   for 

anything�察�but it wasn't funny to me。 The story they acted was all about a 

young couple fooling their parents and getting married without father and 

mother   knowing�察  �and   a   baby   brought   in   at   the   last   that   nobody   would 



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claim though it was said to be somebody's that shouldn't have had onethe 

audience just screamed with laughter over that�察�I thought they never would 

quiet   down。   Out   in   The   big   world�察  �babies   and   old   fathers   and   mothers 

seem to be jokes。 The star of the evening was a married actress with 'Miss' 

before   her   name。   You   could   hear   every   word   she   spoke�察  �but   the   others 

didn't seem to try to make themselves plainI guess that's why they aren't 

stars�察�too。 

     ;I've lived more during the last week than I had the previous fifty´one。 

We must have been to everything there is�察�except a church。 Yesterday was 

Sunday�察�and I asked Mrs。 Sellimer about it�察�but she said people didn't go to 

church any more。 

     ;Maybe you wonder why I don't tell you about our crowd�察�but I guess 

it's because I feel as if they didn't matter。 I wouldn't say that to anybody in 

the world but to you�察�Brick and Bill�察�and if I hadn't promised to write you 

every single thing�察�I wouldn't even tell you�察�because they are so good to 

me。   It   sounds   untrue   to   them�察  �doesn't   it�拭  �But   you   won't   tell   anybody�察�

because you've nobody to tell� �And besides�察�they could be different in a 

minute if they wanted to be�察�it isn't as if they were helpless。 

     ;Miss Sellimer is witty and talented�察�and from the way she treats me�察�I 

know   she   has   a   tender   heart。  And   her   mother   is   a   perfect   wonder   of   a 

manager�察�and never makes mistakes except such as happen to be the fad of
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